I Miss You Mama!

Today, morethan any other days of my life , I strongly feel the longing of my Mother's voice. I miss the way we talk over the phone at the most random things in life. We laugh together and even argue together but never ending the conversation without our fleeting yet sweet ' i love you's '. I was never a Mama's little girl but in my growing up years especially after the loss of my father, we became each other's pillars. She thought I was her strongest pillar but least did she realized she is and will always be the one who holds my ground. Now that she's sick , still confide in her hospital bed for a month now it made me sick to my stomach realizing how I missed so bad our everyday conversations. I realized how I miss the thought of her simply being there.

I honestly don't know what to tell my God anymore. I simply ask him now to teach me how to pray. My faith is still very much intact and I still believe in miracles but sometimes in the process you don't realize that you sometimes forget what to pray and how to pray you want to be understood. I know that I have a faithful God too and that he sees through everything. He see's through every heart, every desire, every devotions and intentions. I know that he knew how I would love to buy more time for my mother. I am bargaining with God every chance , every moment I have. I am bargaining for our dear lives coz only he knows how much I still needed my mom beside me.

Do I sound scared? Yes , I am. Scared of the lost chances I won't be able to make up to. But I have faith that my God hears my heart, he sees through my tears, fears and hopes that one day soon I will have my mother's back with me. My mama as her doctors would say it, is one tough cookie and for you Ma, I will become a tough cookie too so that we will have more time to spend together and together we'll show the world how tough we remained for each other.

I miss you very much Mama and I want the world to know that I will always Love You! We'll have more grand time together! Hang in there!!! We still have long way to go together. That was already promised!

Your GV Daughter,

Lab-Lab.