i hope to find time ..

I used to have a lot of time before blogging about what I really think and feel. But as often as I wonder why is it so hard to write something when you're at your low point? I used to think before that it was my outlet into this hassle world. Then I later on realzied that too much writing about my negative thoughts and feelings only adds up to my burden and so I switched blogging lightly, bubbly and easy. Although there are days that I wish I could just fill this entire spread sheet into what I truly feel hence I vowed to always be careful and selective with my thoughts. That I know will do me good. It's kind of stressful in the beginning but it takes practice. It's like learning to play the guitar, at first it'll hurt you, it requires great lenghth of discipline, patience and determination to truly learn the ropes ( i know, coz I tried and when my fingers started to hurt I resort to downloading music instead, haha! kidding aside ). But once you learn how to play you can even close your eyes to feel the music and the melody ( that's just so rewarding ). And so, that's where I am now. Hoping to find myself thinking only of all the best and beautiful of things. I want to learn to effortlessly paint any pictures in my mind that will serve me well in this lifetime. Who doesn't want good things to happen in their lives? None of course.

And so to put my thoughts in perspectives. One of my goals in 2012 is this. I will only accomodate whatever it is that will inject happiness in me and to the people who matters to me. I can always decide for myself at any time and I always have a choice ( i should never forget this ). I want to start living a meaningful life, one that I will be proud to tell tales to my future ( whatever ) haha!. I want to be able to look back to my life happily and I pray to live fair with the people sorrounding me. It always require great effort to be human all the time because we tend to snap at the smallest of thimgs and I hope I'd be able to choose the best of things and to not lose my better judgement.

It pays to reflect once in a while. In this world we live in we can easily be lost from all the glitz and glamour life but I hope I won't find myself one day enjoying only the temporary things. I want the things that matters the most and the people who matters to me. I would always welcome the grandest of things though , the easy and comfortable life but I want to enjoy it with my family and friends and I wish the same things for you too! I want all the goodvibes and all the best for your life as well!

GoodVibes-ternoon! hehe

gracy