-so to speak-
thanks to the inconsidirate idiots, can’t sleep anymore… well, so much of them besides they don’t deserve any space to my upright blog..on the brighter side…PANALO NA NAMAN SI PACMAN! cheers to the Filipino and to the people in GENSAN… ang galing galing naman.
PACMAN is a living proof that dreams really can be achieved. i remembered the book i just finished reading recently intitled "YOU CAN DO IT" by Paul Hanna (Austrillia’s King of Motivation). he said in his book that "there is no such thing as luck" LUCK is when PREPARATION meets OPPURTUNITY… may point.. Like Pacman, being the world’s champion is no way to be considered a LUCK, of course it’s not. we’ve seen some of his hardworks in trainings and his other physical activities in preparation for each of his fights. Long before he won the title, he already went through a lot. he’s prepared. Now, that’s what happened. He’s got preparation and when the oppurtunity knocked he is ready to take on the fight. now, he’s Lucky… kung walang preparation kahit my oppurtunity walang luck…logical…=)
cheers to PACMAN! congratz saten lahat… Mabuhay ang Gensan!
A YEAR THAT WAS..2006..
We’re almost at the bottom of the heap. Two more nights to go and we will be leaving the year 2006 to welcome the new dawn of 2007.
I never give so much emphasis on leaving and the coming of another year. but this time, i couldn’t help but look back on the year that was too good for me. 2006 gave me so much memories that i will always be too proud to dwell on.
i met new found friends. friends that are so great. friends that i’ve met and shared my so-short-lived- life with them. how can i forget those people who felt like i’ve known for ages. people who’ve been very concerned, forgiving, funny, thougtful, and great companion.
how can i forget my solo flights. my road trip along edsa. my mall tours hahaha. my job. i will never forget the experience of being a call center agent. the life of being a "nucturnal slave". the feeling of having to sleep at 1pm and get up at 12am and get on the phone at 3am.wow. i never thought i could do that. but i just did.
i was able to see the other side of people, environment, lifestyle and most especially i was able to prove to myself that i need not have my family to look after me. i can survive alone.
2006 was very generous to me and i will never forget that. it allows me to held different jobs in a short while yet bein able to meet diverse people and job culture. it allowed me to see things in my own perspective and learned to careless on what other people might say.
i was able to gain and lost friends at the same time but it’s all worth it, i jut realized. it helps me distinguished who my real friends are and who are those worth trashing. it helps me realized that people changed and that we mature and with each new maturity comes new choices and decision.
i will never stop chasing happiness in the coming new year because that is the greatest gift i’d ever known this year. i will never cease loving beacuse that is my gauge in staying sane, complete, and whole.
i am looking forward for the new dawn. new experiences to conquer. new friendships to build. new people to meet. but still old family to be there. old friends to keep me going. old self to affirm.
let us all welcome 2007 with an open arms and heart. hope for the best for the rest of the year. sometimes mastered figthing spirit is all we need to get through everything.
Cheers to 2006!
what a day!
i think sometimes it’s alright to just pause and think of everything going on around you and your life..i think it’s alright to somehow question yourself on where you’re heading to… sometimes i think it’s alright to just find myself in that path.
with all the hustles and bustles of everyday life i think i had to stop. i’ve been doing things routinely now and it’s tiring… again i think it’s alright to feel that way..
now, as i had a very long day i’d like to splurge into the warmth of my bed… *gudnyt*
hay naku boogie!
time flies so fast… ic ould still vividly remember the last time i sat on my desk to write a post on my blog and that was 2 days before 2007…but hey, it’s february already…i almost felt like i missed a lot on everything… Feb-ibig na…lavapaloooza na.hahaha=)
well, some things changed a lot in just a wink of an eye..coz yeah, like it or not the only constant in this cruel world is change… how could someone celebrate love month after having her heart broken?… how could someone celebrate with the rest of the world when the person she held most dearly in her heart just gone astray?… oh well, how?… i dunno know… but certainly we will always be here for you.. no matter what..
you know what friend, there’s still so much things to do in this world.. trust me…trust us you will get over him.. it may take you years or decade to forget an 8 year rel gone sour but you definitely will get over him. i swear. and when that day comes we will still be there to laugh with you on how stupid you’ve been. but that’s normal. that’s even valid.
and to the guy who teaches your heart to be tough, i thank him truly. what goes around comes around, anyway.
but hey, just to draw the line… i will remain friends with the both of you..of course with you my dear girl friend, i will be eround to help you mend that heart..and yeah to you "guy" we will still be friends…
i just wish you my friend your sooner recovery with us.. *umwah*
Posted on on February 4th, 2007 in Uncategorized | 2 Comments »
bound to happen
…if things are meant to happen, they will happen…
even if that would mean getting a perfect haircut from another hairdresser beacuse fortunately your old hairdresser just got his day-off and you found the right chance to actually try someone else without having to hurt his ego..
even if that would mean pulling the best fitted jeans on earth or a text message from a friend you haven’t seen for quite sometime..
even if that would mean short hour of talking and catching up on things over a regular size pizza and a bottle of beer with a little serving of salad..
even if that would mean getting a very short-noticed invitation to the mall and all of a sudden you feel like guilty for being always in a hurry and to feel like you haven’t been polite enough to stay..
even if that would mean a phone call from a friend you’ve never seen for so long..never heard anything about… and yet took the courage to apologize…
yeah…those are only few things that happened…and they are meant to find its path through me=)
even if that would mean getting a perfect haircut from another hairdresser beacuse fortunately your old hairdresser just got his day-off and you found the right chance to actually try someone else without having to hurt his ego..
even if that would mean pulling the best fitted jeans on earth or a text message from a friend you haven’t seen for quite sometime..
even if that would mean short hour of talking and catching up on things over a regular size pizza and a bottle of beer with a little serving of salad..
even if that would mean getting a very short-noticed invitation to the mall and all of a sudden you feel like guilty for being always in a hurry and to feel like you haven’t been polite enough to stay..
even if that would mean a phone call from a friend you’ve never seen for so long..never heard anything about… and yet took the courage to apologize…
yeah…those are only few things that happened…and they are meant to find its path through me=)
it’s been a long time
i never had enough of my blog… and enough time as well to flood every inch of my page with my mixed-emotions long overdue.. last month i was so sad with my 3 good friends leaving our country to find a greener pasture elsewhere. when i was young i envied those people who were able to pose and take pictures of themselves abroad. Sometimes, i wander why do they have to leave and what do they do outside. But most of the time i am thrilled with how lucky they are for having to see the other masterpiece of God.
Now, that i am all grown up and are able to understand things without having an adult to explain to me all the why’s in the world i realized life is all about constant struggling and life in the philippines is a never ending struggle. Again, i found myself in the same scenario decades ago. I held in my hand a picture of someone posing and smiling with the burj hotel that serves as a magnificient back draft. The only difference this time around is that i knew the person and that person is one of my most dearest friend.
I ached for the comfort that we shoud have in our country. If only we have enough resources we would’nt have to risk the pain of going long-distance with our friends and families and the life that we are so comfortable to live. If only things are well and good then going abroad meant a long luxurious vacation and never an employment.
Last month i hugged 3 most dearest friends at davao’s airport. i wouldn’t know when will i be able to see them again. Sure, they will be able to see what lies ahead on the other side of the globe but still it tore my heart because i know they still have to endure so many things in the land of an unknown. But on the other hand i couldn’t wait for them to earn their independence.
I wish all of them the best of life in their new found cradle. I don’t know if i can withstand the fact that i will be left of with life’s chances. I probably would start packing my things and prepare myself to the land yet to be travelled.
Cheers to my friends bravery! … and i will see you guys very soon.
Now, that i am all grown up and are able to understand things without having an adult to explain to me all the why’s in the world i realized life is all about constant struggling and life in the philippines is a never ending struggle. Again, i found myself in the same scenario decades ago. I held in my hand a picture of someone posing and smiling with the burj hotel that serves as a magnificient back draft. The only difference this time around is that i knew the person and that person is one of my most dearest friend.
I ached for the comfort that we shoud have in our country. If only we have enough resources we would’nt have to risk the pain of going long-distance with our friends and families and the life that we are so comfortable to live. If only things are well and good then going abroad meant a long luxurious vacation and never an employment.
Last month i hugged 3 most dearest friends at davao’s airport. i wouldn’t know when will i be able to see them again. Sure, they will be able to see what lies ahead on the other side of the globe but still it tore my heart because i know they still have to endure so many things in the land of an unknown. But on the other hand i couldn’t wait for them to earn their independence.
I wish all of them the best of life in their new found cradle. I don’t know if i can withstand the fact that i will be left of with life’s chances. I probably would start packing my things and prepare myself to the land yet to be travelled.
Cheers to my friends bravery! … and i will see you guys very soon.
got it from the book
i happened to read the book 10 SMART MOVES FOR WOMEN and it has a lot of great things that all women should know … the point i really found striking was about self-respect which nowadays i think is no longer included to some of womens vocabulary…. the author cited a lot of situations but the thing that strucked me the most says " when you moved in with a man without commitment he already know one crucial thing, he doesn’t have to do much to get you. And then he fools around and you stayed and then he learned one more thing, he doesn’t have to do much to keep you.Now that has to crushing to your self-respect" … true …
… fun.fearless.femme.
… fun.fearless.femme.
getting your message across
communication for me is the most vital thing to keep any form of relationship alive. it is what binds people together. it’s the bridge when others are trying to build a wall. it’s the tool to link the gap. it’s truly significant.
if you want something to be settled then talk about it. open up. communicate. you will never go wrong in giving it a chance, after all there are only to things to do here.. to listen and to talk …
how could someone walk away from the mere thought of constant communication … or random updates …
i think we ALL have to learn the habit of communicating … of being open …. of being human.
if you want something to be settled then talk about it. open up. communicate. you will never go wrong in giving it a chance, after all there are only to things to do here.. to listen and to talk …
how could someone walk away from the mere thought of constant communication … or random updates …
i think we ALL have to learn the habit of communicating … of being open …. of being human.
one word may silent someone forever
" one word may silent someone forever" … i came upon this quotation today and i thought, yeah it could be. but how?
… then i realized any harsh words said to someone could mean separation … lost of interest … detachment … drift … gap … wall .. closure …
it could happen really …
… but how mean is mean .. and how harsh is harsh …
is it mean to speak out your mind? is it mean to admit that you’re disappointed coz at some point you’re expecting something but it didn’t turned out the way you wanted. is it mean to question the things that you don’t understand? is it mean to just refuse to talk to a person you’re mad at coz you’re sole intention is to spare that person from potential hurt feelings cause by your anger? is it mean to be yourself and to make the other person realize that standing for yourself mean SOMETHING. is it mean to complain? is it mean to be proud and have the audacity to be one?
…. i guess it all depends upon the level of maturity of the person. it depends upon how the recieving end perceive things. it depends upon how the other person analyze and understand things ….
sure, there are a lot of things or words that could silent someone forever… How you say things is just as important as what you say…
ikaw? how mean are you? …
be proud. sa tagalog… maging mayabang.=)
… then i realized any harsh words said to someone could mean separation … lost of interest … detachment … drift … gap … wall .. closure …
it could happen really …
… but how mean is mean .. and how harsh is harsh …
is it mean to speak out your mind? is it mean to admit that you’re disappointed coz at some point you’re expecting something but it didn’t turned out the way you wanted. is it mean to question the things that you don’t understand? is it mean to just refuse to talk to a person you’re mad at coz you’re sole intention is to spare that person from potential hurt feelings cause by your anger? is it mean to be yourself and to make the other person realize that standing for yourself mean SOMETHING. is it mean to complain? is it mean to be proud and have the audacity to be one?
…. i guess it all depends upon the level of maturity of the person. it depends upon how the recieving end perceive things. it depends upon how the other person analyze and understand things ….
sure, there are a lot of things or words that could silent someone forever… How you say things is just as important as what you say…
ikaw? how mean are you? …
be proud. sa tagalog… maging mayabang.=)
every relationship is always worth restoring
i am not here to preach you about life i just chanced upon a verse few days ago about relationship. although i am harmoniously moving around with anyone right at this very moment i still can’t help to give this thought a little time.
relationship is truly what life is all about.right? and we just could not simply ignore it like how we intentionally ignore things that we’re not interested on. people that we have relationships with are what will matter to us in the end. when the time comes that we have to leave this earth we surely would not want to be sorrounded with the things we’ve acquired that provides us temporary outer comfort but rather we would like to be sorrounded with people we have relationships with.
the point of the matter is, anyone who wants to restore a broken relationship deserves a second chance. anyone who wishes to mend broken hearts deserves a chance. anyone who intends to bridge the gap deserves the chance. anyone who wants to live at peace with everybody deserves a chance.
we all deserves a chance. whether it’s our second or our nth time. we deserves it.
relationship is truly what life is all about.right? and we just could not simply ignore it like how we intentionally ignore things that we’re not interested on. people that we have relationships with are what will matter to us in the end. when the time comes that we have to leave this earth we surely would not want to be sorrounded with the things we’ve acquired that provides us temporary outer comfort but rather we would like to be sorrounded with people we have relationships with.
the point of the matter is, anyone who wants to restore a broken relationship deserves a second chance. anyone who wishes to mend broken hearts deserves a chance. anyone who intends to bridge the gap deserves the chance. anyone who wants to live at peace with everybody deserves a chance.
we all deserves a chance. whether it’s our second or our nth time. we deserves it.
Posted on on May 10th, 2007 in Uncategorized | 1 Comment »
they say the FATHER is her daughters FIRST LOVE
i am writing this to honor my father who now enjoys the life of eternity with our God Almighty.
My father is the KING of the house. He sees to it that his rules are being followed. He has always been a figure head and is very strict to us his kids. He rarely cracks his jokes and is very articulate. I labelled him OC most of the time. He never understands when mistakes are made and when in our slightest attempt of being heard, he never hesitated to ground us even more, from then on, i thought my father needs some serious parenting advice.
and then, one unusual day. i came to understand this man who all his life was trying to make everything perfect for us. although sometimes it’s obvious he is aware that he himself was disappointed with every attempt he made but still he never ceased being the man we used to know. i don’t know exactly what his issues were during his days as a kid, but i do know that he was never an abused child. Only i am aware that he was raised the way he exactly would wanted to raise us his kids.
he was quite disciplined probably bacause he was used to follows rules when he was a kid which made him a better man. i don’t know if he had ever realized that somehow he was molding us to be the person we’re actually not. But whether he did or not, i truly thank him.
i held no dislike towards my father for being that way. he did a very great job. i will never forget how he used to settle for being a tough dad rather than being light hearted one. he may laugh with us in rare occasion but it was all heartfelt. and in the last days of his life with us i saw him as a changed man.
just before he’s gone, my father revealed his soft spot and that made me realized that i too have a father just like everyone else does. Maybe all he wanted was to set an example of how to run a family and handle kids so that when the time comes that it’s our turn to build a family of our own we would have known better on where to start and what to do. it’s all in a matter of accepting his quirks as a dad because he is not perfect.
i had fun memories with him too and i will live to tell the tale to my own kids in the future. i lost my dad at such a tender age, just as when i needed most a man to stand beside me as i face the teenage years, i lost him.
i ached each time i wander to a happier time or even tough times with him. but i can’t also hide the contentment and a peace of mind whenever i realized that between us he is lucky to be rested.
i sure had moments when i cursed God and asked him how he could take a father away from his child. but now, i already came to terms with everything including that sudden lost of my father. i truly understand what had happened and why do it need to happen. i now understand why my father needed to be tough coz on the process we were all unconcious as to how he was preparing us for his lost. How vast is the mind of God.
there are no days that i am not missing my father and that is the most painful thing i have ever felt and will always feel every single day of my life.
Lucky are those who still have a father and a chance to call a man "papa" , "daddy" , "tatay" or whatever you wanna call them. don’t forget to hug that man as often as you could. don’t forget to thank that man now while they could still hear you. and don’t forget to greet that MAN whom we ever first love a HAPPY FATHERS DAY coz you never know.
and to my father:
happy father’s day papa! i love you and i so miss you.
My father is the KING of the house. He sees to it that his rules are being followed. He has always been a figure head and is very strict to us his kids. He rarely cracks his jokes and is very articulate. I labelled him OC most of the time. He never understands when mistakes are made and when in our slightest attempt of being heard, he never hesitated to ground us even more, from then on, i thought my father needs some serious parenting advice.
and then, one unusual day. i came to understand this man who all his life was trying to make everything perfect for us. although sometimes it’s obvious he is aware that he himself was disappointed with every attempt he made but still he never ceased being the man we used to know. i don’t know exactly what his issues were during his days as a kid, but i do know that he was never an abused child. Only i am aware that he was raised the way he exactly would wanted to raise us his kids.
he was quite disciplined probably bacause he was used to follows rules when he was a kid which made him a better man. i don’t know if he had ever realized that somehow he was molding us to be the person we’re actually not. But whether he did or not, i truly thank him.
i held no dislike towards my father for being that way. he did a very great job. i will never forget how he used to settle for being a tough dad rather than being light hearted one. he may laugh with us in rare occasion but it was all heartfelt. and in the last days of his life with us i saw him as a changed man.
just before he’s gone, my father revealed his soft spot and that made me realized that i too have a father just like everyone else does. Maybe all he wanted was to set an example of how to run a family and handle kids so that when the time comes that it’s our turn to build a family of our own we would have known better on where to start and what to do. it’s all in a matter of accepting his quirks as a dad because he is not perfect.
i had fun memories with him too and i will live to tell the tale to my own kids in the future. i lost my dad at such a tender age, just as when i needed most a man to stand beside me as i face the teenage years, i lost him.
i ached each time i wander to a happier time or even tough times with him. but i can’t also hide the contentment and a peace of mind whenever i realized that between us he is lucky to be rested.
i sure had moments when i cursed God and asked him how he could take a father away from his child. but now, i already came to terms with everything including that sudden lost of my father. i truly understand what had happened and why do it need to happen. i now understand why my father needed to be tough coz on the process we were all unconcious as to how he was preparing us for his lost. How vast is the mind of God.
there are no days that i am not missing my father and that is the most painful thing i have ever felt and will always feel every single day of my life.
Lucky are those who still have a father and a chance to call a man "papa" , "daddy" , "tatay" or whatever you wanna call them. don’t forget to hug that man as often as you could. don’t forget to thank that man now while they could still hear you. and don’t forget to greet that MAN whom we ever first love a HAPPY FATHERS DAY coz you never know.
and to my father:
happy father’s day papa! i love you and i so miss you.
way too late =)
ok, i know this is sooOoooOO embarrassing of me— i never thought notting hill is very romantic until i get the chance to see it again last night… i fell in-love with the movie— ok, i watched this when i was stil in highschool but i wasn’t really paying attention on the movie and i regretted how lame i was to not realized how good it was… how can such a closet romantic pass on the chance, riht?! huh! …. i forgive myself now, hhehe! and for that, i watched it for i don’t know how many times anymore as a form of punishment! ahahaha! …
seriously, i just so love it, probably becoz Hugh Grant perfectly played his role and Julia knows exactly how to be like what her character’s asking her to become ( ok, no one’s asking my review, u know too late) =)
or… i was moved by the movie — not becoz i adore julia roberts but probably becoz i see hugh grant’s character in me… like how patient he was and how willing he was to take everything in despite the hurts becoz he loves julia. alright, i am far from that but i could be one..hay naku! … ganun ba talaga ang love!?! weeee!
alright, now so what’s the fuss all about?! notting—hill… hehe!=)
seriously, i just so love it, probably becoz Hugh Grant perfectly played his role and Julia knows exactly how to be like what her character’s asking her to become ( ok, no one’s asking my review, u know too late) =)
or… i was moved by the movie — not becoz i adore julia roberts but probably becoz i see hugh grant’s character in me… like how patient he was and how willing he was to take everything in despite the hurts becoz he loves julia. alright, i am far from that but i could be one..hay naku! … ganun ba talaga ang love!?! weeee!
alright, now so what’s the fuss all about?! notting—hill… hehe!=)
ahahaha! ahahaha!
im a number one FAN of PBB and that’s the official cutie-laugh of BEAtriz! ahahaha-ahahaha! ..(alright, im talking nonsense here!) .. ow, let’s see … anything that make sense?! … unhm! ok, i just finished the book "the secret of life"–(commonsense advice for uncommon women)–by the way,thanks to deck for lending me that wonderful,inspiring,eye-opener book! woah!… sabi dun, most women who are broken hearted raw tends to outburst their pain and miseries by going into the parlor… and most women raw, get a new haircut wen in pain and all which is not the best and the wisest idea to do… tama nga naman… and i am thinking–is it also the same as wanting to get ur hair curled or straightened just soooo becoz the one he got away with had exactly the same style of locks? … uhmn! how pathetic! … wawa naman! … you better read the book!… love yourself… you dont have to be a living narsicist! just simply love yourslef…=) hear that! …
for the true souls
as i am approaching yet another year of my life, i couldn’t help but to examine everything that had happened and is happening…
i am missing my friends jhaja and phoebe who now lives million and a half miles away from me. it’s really hard to be far from these people who had always been there for me, yet dispite the obvious distance i never felt far at all. you both simply made it real and made it easy for us. proofs that friendship can withstand the test of time no matter how near or far.
i am having fun with the ones left behind. mariz, carla, helen, and hopefully lj will start to renew the friendship vow! hehehe! seriously, now morethan ever, i felt nothing but closer to these girls. i don’t know what is it, but i think it’s the awareness that we are all getting fewer and that if we could still spend time with each other we better do it now.. i can only be glad that we still have each other and getting the most out of it…
i am used to my set-up with gen, tin c, tin g, and pj.. these people are my all time friends.. we never spend most of ours days or time but when the time comes that we have to have each other, we have one another. we may never call or text often but you know, friendship remains intact and that is what i am thankful for.
i lost a friend.. may be that’s what happens in life when no one’s willing to compromise. it’s sad but it’s a whole lot better now.
life goes on… the world won’t stop for me coz i am not the center of the universe. i gained more and i lost big time. but it doesn’t mean i should stop from living my life happily.
and for my friends –the one i found true souls with, i am so thankful that i have you guys.. i love you all!
i am missing my friends jhaja and phoebe who now lives million and a half miles away from me. it’s really hard to be far from these people who had always been there for me, yet dispite the obvious distance i never felt far at all. you both simply made it real and made it easy for us. proofs that friendship can withstand the test of time no matter how near or far.
i am having fun with the ones left behind. mariz, carla, helen, and hopefully lj will start to renew the friendship vow! hehehe! seriously, now morethan ever, i felt nothing but closer to these girls. i don’t know what is it, but i think it’s the awareness that we are all getting fewer and that if we could still spend time with each other we better do it now.. i can only be glad that we still have each other and getting the most out of it…
i am used to my set-up with gen, tin c, tin g, and pj.. these people are my all time friends.. we never spend most of ours days or time but when the time comes that we have to have each other, we have one another. we may never call or text often but you know, friendship remains intact and that is what i am thankful for.
i lost a friend.. may be that’s what happens in life when no one’s willing to compromise. it’s sad but it’s a whole lot better now.
life goes on… the world won’t stop for me coz i am not the center of the universe. i gained more and i lost big time. but it doesn’t mean i should stop from living my life happily.
and for my friends –the one i found true souls with, i am so thankful that i have you guys.. i love you all!
when all else fails
…i don’t know whats with the title or what am i here for now… probably i just would like to leave a trace for the day… that i was here… ya, i think that’s it for now! ciao.
creeping thoughts
they say you can to be honest with what you feel without being too critical and that there is no point sharing your thoughts unless you share them all. i wonder how….
you know in this dog-eat-dog world it’s really hard to be non-critical without having to be labelled as such even at the slightest attempt. people will still hold their opinions which at what they are best to say " we all have to respect someone else’s opinion". true enough but in a way we just don’t know the limit.
i think being critical is an art form, it takes mastery to be one. but personally, i think it’s a whole lot better to speak the truth regardless of what others might conclude about you… but then again- it doesn’t work that way all the time.. not even to me…
there are still instances that we have to remain quiet. there are times that the situation calls for it and all we could ever do is give in.
although it is true that internal dialogue will forever be silent unless given a voice sometimes that is the best resort. it doesn’t mean you’re less, it doesn’t mean you’re weak… who knows for others it might be a sign of diplomacy, of decency, of respect.
not all people who can speak the truth are woth calling a noble coz not all people who appear to be so honest had done the most noblest job.
you know in this dog-eat-dog world it’s really hard to be non-critical without having to be labelled as such even at the slightest attempt. people will still hold their opinions which at what they are best to say " we all have to respect someone else’s opinion". true enough but in a way we just don’t know the limit.
i think being critical is an art form, it takes mastery to be one. but personally, i think it’s a whole lot better to speak the truth regardless of what others might conclude about you… but then again- it doesn’t work that way all the time.. not even to me…
there are still instances that we have to remain quiet. there are times that the situation calls for it and all we could ever do is give in.
although it is true that internal dialogue will forever be silent unless given a voice sometimes that is the best resort. it doesn’t mean you’re less, it doesn’t mean you’re weak… who knows for others it might be a sign of diplomacy, of decency, of respect.
not all people who can speak the truth are woth calling a noble coz not all people who appear to be so honest had done the most noblest job.
I WISH YOU LOVE…AND I REALLY WISH YOU WELL
nothing is ever constant in this life.. sounds cliched and all but it’s all very true… and that includes everything…
recently i just had to hug a friend again before heading to a yet another wonderful journey in life. it isn’t always easy but we have to… you know, everytime im down the road of letting a friend leave for somewhere else again which im starting to notice it’s becoming a frequent experience already im always lost for words… and to be honest i didn’t know what to say…
what would i say anyway when as a matter of factly i sometimes feel selfish of wanting to freeze time and if only possible i would purchase that so called time machine to g back from our most carefree days. it’s really hard to not having to share the same sky with those people whom you practically grew up with…
but as soon as i was able to pull myself back together, i know i will never stop being happy for them… for those who left and for those who had found their new home… and for the one who just left- the one whom i had those best laughs with - i really wish you well…
to you my friend:
there is a new life and a new beginning for you in that land. you may not have known it yet but im definitely sure God has a much much better if not the best plan of your life. i want you to know that you don not deserve to settle for the second best- not because were friends but more because i know you as a person… you are well worth it… keep telling yourself that.
find that peace of mind and when you do, embrace it. be thankful for it… and who knows at this very moment someone’s not getting a good sleep- i bet there is!…
you will always have a home tel =) it’s US. you will always have me to back you up… and i will always be your friend… through thick and thin.. through good and bad… you can always always count on that.
leave all your burdens behind.. and never let other people put you down… they are not worth the effort… =)
iloveyou and i so miss you
gracie
recently i just had to hug a friend again before heading to a yet another wonderful journey in life. it isn’t always easy but we have to… you know, everytime im down the road of letting a friend leave for somewhere else again which im starting to notice it’s becoming a frequent experience already im always lost for words… and to be honest i didn’t know what to say…
what would i say anyway when as a matter of factly i sometimes feel selfish of wanting to freeze time and if only possible i would purchase that so called time machine to g back from our most carefree days. it’s really hard to not having to share the same sky with those people whom you practically grew up with…
but as soon as i was able to pull myself back together, i know i will never stop being happy for them… for those who left and for those who had found their new home… and for the one who just left- the one whom i had those best laughs with - i really wish you well…
to you my friend:
there is a new life and a new beginning for you in that land. you may not have known it yet but im definitely sure God has a much much better if not the best plan of your life. i want you to know that you don not deserve to settle for the second best- not because were friends but more because i know you as a person… you are well worth it… keep telling yourself that.
find that peace of mind and when you do, embrace it. be thankful for it… and who knows at this very moment someone’s not getting a good sleep- i bet there is!…
you will always have a home tel =) it’s US. you will always have me to back you up… and i will always be your friend… through thick and thin.. through good and bad… you can always always count on that.
leave all your burdens behind.. and never let other people put you down… they are not worth the effort… =)
iloveyou and i so miss you
gracie
I’VE LEARNED
i’ve learned that in life we only need to be happy to get through. that there are more to life than complaining and whining and sobbing and hating. when it feels like we are getting too much it is simply because we are seeing too much and at times it gets so unhealthy.
i’ve learned that we are always worried on what we don’t have instead of being thankful with what we’ve had. that we are too preoccupied of a lot of things all at once and refusing to accpet the fact that we really ca’nt have everything we wanted all at the same time.
i’ve learned that in this cruel world there are really people who couldn’t careless of what others might feel. that there are insensitive crature looming everywhere and the least we could do is to decide who is worth our time and attention or worse who is worth the pain.
i’ve learned that we can all have handful of friends but not all of them are true. that we have to learn the art of choosing wisely on whom to trust and whom to guard ourselves with. that they could actually appear to be perfect godly friend but behind that comforting presence lies a heart that isn’t truly a friend..
i’ve learned that love lost and love found isn’t really the most romantic feeling on earth (others may disagree). that there are more fleeting moment aside from hugging and kissing and making up and making love. that holding hands or a tap at the back from someone you care most about could mean the world to you and probably might help pull you back from the edge.
i’ve learned that we already suffered being born alone significantly we will have to die alone. that claiming a lost love will be the cause of your "predictable" death is nothing but a pathetic act. that those people who once utter that they can’t live without their betterhalf is half-crazy (hehe! kidding..).
i’ve learned though that above all these things, loving and being loved in return could mean the world to me, to you, to them, to whoever… and it is nothing but true!
i’ve learned too that love is the only thing in this world that is real because no one has the right to question the validity of someone else’s feelings. that at times of loving, when you know in your heart what you feel is true then ther’s no point plastering everything coz you need not to prove anything to anyone.
i’ve learned now that life is a whole new experience waiting to be unleashed. and that cliched as it may sound we all have the choice as to what we wanted to happen in our lives. life is a series of serendipitious events and there are no accidents. i believe that things happen for a reason and that if you don’t believe in God at least have SOMETHING to belive into (but you know, trusting and believing in God is the wisest thing to do)…
really, life is too damn short to be wasted on anything crap. if someone just dumped you, it’s OK to cry, to weep, to sob, to be hurt, to crawl on your bathroom floor because of overwhelming pain but you never have to wish ill on yourslef, nor do harm on yourslef, or worse hope to die.-ah-ah-!
life is too damn short to spend on hating ang grieving, and regretting - coz when we die none of these will matter. you wouldn’t wanna leave venges would you?… point of the matter is, we owe ourselves the happiness we deserve… if we just live harmoniously with the universe and getting that happiness would mean not being ruthless or cause a pain on someone else’s ass then your safe. the world only gives back what you have given… and if you are a person of worth and a person who knows his worth- no one has any single right to make you less and make you feel unworthy and undeserving —…
-graciegurl-09-
i’ve learned that we are always worried on what we don’t have instead of being thankful with what we’ve had. that we are too preoccupied of a lot of things all at once and refusing to accpet the fact that we really ca’nt have everything we wanted all at the same time.
i’ve learned that in this cruel world there are really people who couldn’t careless of what others might feel. that there are insensitive crature looming everywhere and the least we could do is to decide who is worth our time and attention or worse who is worth the pain.
i’ve learned that we can all have handful of friends but not all of them are true. that we have to learn the art of choosing wisely on whom to trust and whom to guard ourselves with. that they could actually appear to be perfect godly friend but behind that comforting presence lies a heart that isn’t truly a friend..
i’ve learned that love lost and love found isn’t really the most romantic feeling on earth (others may disagree). that there are more fleeting moment aside from hugging and kissing and making up and making love. that holding hands or a tap at the back from someone you care most about could mean the world to you and probably might help pull you back from the edge.
i’ve learned that we already suffered being born alone significantly we will have to die alone. that claiming a lost love will be the cause of your "predictable" death is nothing but a pathetic act. that those people who once utter that they can’t live without their betterhalf is half-crazy (hehe! kidding..).
i’ve learned though that above all these things, loving and being loved in return could mean the world to me, to you, to them, to whoever… and it is nothing but true!
i’ve learned too that love is the only thing in this world that is real because no one has the right to question the validity of someone else’s feelings. that at times of loving, when you know in your heart what you feel is true then ther’s no point plastering everything coz you need not to prove anything to anyone.
i’ve learned now that life is a whole new experience waiting to be unleashed. and that cliched as it may sound we all have the choice as to what we wanted to happen in our lives. life is a series of serendipitious events and there are no accidents. i believe that things happen for a reason and that if you don’t believe in God at least have SOMETHING to belive into (but you know, trusting and believing in God is the wisest thing to do)…
really, life is too damn short to be wasted on anything crap. if someone just dumped you, it’s OK to cry, to weep, to sob, to be hurt, to crawl on your bathroom floor because of overwhelming pain but you never have to wish ill on yourslef, nor do harm on yourslef, or worse hope to die.-ah-ah-!
life is too damn short to spend on hating ang grieving, and regretting - coz when we die none of these will matter. you wouldn’t wanna leave venges would you?… point of the matter is, we owe ourselves the happiness we deserve… if we just live harmoniously with the universe and getting that happiness would mean not being ruthless or cause a pain on someone else’s ass then your safe. the world only gives back what you have given… and if you are a person of worth and a person who knows his worth- no one has any single right to make you less and make you feel unworthy and undeserving —…
-graciegurl-09-
fast lane
lately, i found myself drifting back to a lot of things in the past. nothing’s specific just the whole picture. and it dawned on me that i am living in a fast lane- although not literally im not an actress or a model or someone who runs his life as fast as he could- but it feels like it… it feels like i just fell asleep from such a long day and wen i woke up it’s christmas time again. all that was left of me was the memories of how i used to have annual christmas party with my most closest friends. but where do they go now? what happened to the ritual? the routine of having to impose obligatory exchanging of gifts.. life’s truly a fast lane. no one could actually go right in and scream STOP. no one.
as i was sitting here, pondering every memories that i was obviously too proud to dwell on i never failed to own a teary eyes. they are just too good at the time. it pisses me off to think that i couldn’t get back to those good old days- there’s no bailing on it. and money no matter how much of them we have will never give us back the past. what’s more sad about it is that it happened so fast. so fast that before we knew it it’s done. it seems like it’s already over before it actually begun.
that’s how life’s works as they say. and it’s really best to give everything you have for the moment coz in the future you will never regret a moments effort. in time it’ll be worth it. in time it’s just all you’ve got.
gracie
as i was sitting here, pondering every memories that i was obviously too proud to dwell on i never failed to own a teary eyes. they are just too good at the time. it pisses me off to think that i couldn’t get back to those good old days- there’s no bailing on it. and money no matter how much of them we have will never give us back the past. what’s more sad about it is that it happened so fast. so fast that before we knew it it’s done. it seems like it’s already over before it actually begun.
that’s how life’s works as they say. and it’s really best to give everything you have for the moment coz in the future you will never regret a moments effort. in time it’ll be worth it. in time it’s just all you’ve got.
gracie
ADIOS 2007
before 2007 ends i know i’ve got lots of pondering moments to do. and as i am here sitting trying to drift back from all the things that had happened i don’t see the need to have anything edited or deleted thus far i enjoyed and cherished everything.
and i could not possibly end this year without acknowledging the people who had been a part of it- of course my family and my friends.
nothing is more important to me than my FAMILY- my one true thing. My home. The entire ME. this year, i saw a FAMILY who fought the battle together. it was so admirable how one’s instict to rescue a broken heart becomes the sudden heartbeat of everyone else. i saw the LOVE that transcends and overpower hopelessness. i felt the joy beyond belief that only a FAMILY can provide.
how can i forget to acknowledge my FRIENDS who stood the test of times- countless times to be exact!
thank you JHAJA who had always been my bestfriend and sister and soul comforter. you had always given me shoulder to cry on. you never fails me. you are my proof that friends need not to argue to settle things. we will always be the GRACE and JHAJA tandem! thank you so much for eveything you’ve done for me.
thank you MARIZ whom by far the most honest and opinioted friend i have. your opinion matters to me and your voice is as important as our friendship. you will always be the best dress and the sexy (ehem) friend i will so proud to parade with. thank you for our more than a decade of friendship and yeah, we’re still counting!
thank you LITTLE for allowing me to be the best friend that i could be for you. you had always been my "laugh buddy" as what i’ve said it’s you that i had my best laughs with. we may have our differences but we will always be the same. i will never grow tired defending you because that’s why friends are here for. find comfort in the thought that if God lead you through it, He will get you through it.
thank you FEBI my all time accomodating friend. i soo miss you and the way you treated us in your house. it always feel like first time. but more than that i am so thankful for the fact that we’ve known each other since pigtail days and that would be almost half our lives! my god! you had always given me sound judgement and wise decision in life. you just don’t know how much i look up to you. you inspires me all the time.
thank you CARLA that i never get to feel dull when we’re together. you are the knid of friend whom i can spend the entire day with without having a possible argument.hehe! your calmness fascinates me, i wonder how you do that. but nevertheless, you will always be my one great source of wonder. and i am glad we’re friends and we will always be that way.
thank you HELEN and although i rarely get to keep in touch with you lately i know this friendship transcends time, distance, and silence. you are my truly FABULOUS friend. the one person i can have a conversation with from pork-siomai down to deomestic-bliss hehe! i will always be looking forward for your reserved stories to tell and i will always be the first person to wish you true happiness.
thank you TIN CAP for the kind of friendship that demands no explanation or whatsoever. i know and i am assured that i will always have a friend in you when the goin get tough. and when all else fails the true spirit of seraphims26 will come to my rescue and i am glad you’re a part of it.
thank you PEARL for our all time conversation you just don’t know how glad i am to find solace in you. our talk-marathon is my own version of theraphy. you know how i love to have meaningful conversation-something that is so hard to have these days esp in the advent of text messages. Nothing beats that one-on-one/ face-to-face conversation over pizza or whatever! thanks peej. i am looking forward for the next chat!
thank you TIN GARI for doing the effort to spend time with me and always keeping tract with our friendship. you know how i regard you as my lost sister =) i want you to know that i appreciate everything you’re doing and i am so proud to see you’ve grown up so much.
thank you GEN my operator no more..hehe=) you are the most quite yet the sweetest friend i think i have. you’re the best example if not perfect of what a true BESTFRIEND should be. you may be unaware but you have to know how thankful i am to be your friend, it’s not everyday and not everyone gets to have a GENEVIEVE like ours =)
thank you MARES the prodigal friend =) whom we missessss a lot. our HOT MAMA and although we rarely see each other we will always be true to the bond that we’ve had. remember this FRIENDSHIP never requires anything. we miss you res!
thank you LJ for testing how far my patience could strecth. but anyhow, your presence makes our friendship wonderful. i don’t know if i will be as thrilled as i am right now if not because of your presence.
truly, friends are what we need to go on in life i am a strong believer of that.
so, ADIOS 2007 i had great great memories to take with me in the coming new year as much as i had so many baggagess to leave behind. i don’t intend to overload myself - no way!
there’s one more thing i felt the need to share:
to leave something behind is a definite blow on our part because people are wired to cling on things. but sooner or later we will only realize that while we are so busy focusing on the small details we tend to forget the bigger picture. if we only see things in black and white, we miss the other shades of color that helps define the kind of person we are now and the kind of people we have in our lives. Acceptance is a skill and it doesn’t take bragging what’s in between our ears- it is a thing that comes from the heart. people will always be complicated and although sometimes it is just so easy to assume things against someone rather than figuring them out it helps to know that most of the time it is critical to make any assumptions. nothing can be more liberating than acknowledging your flaws and becoming brave from that imperfection.
we are the ones who will decide on how things in our lives should go. it is a blessing- and not a curse!
HAVE A BLESSED CHRISTMAS EVERYONE AND A TRULY PEACEFUL NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!
and i could not possibly end this year without acknowledging the people who had been a part of it- of course my family and my friends.
nothing is more important to me than my FAMILY- my one true thing. My home. The entire ME. this year, i saw a FAMILY who fought the battle together. it was so admirable how one’s instict to rescue a broken heart becomes the sudden heartbeat of everyone else. i saw the LOVE that transcends and overpower hopelessness. i felt the joy beyond belief that only a FAMILY can provide.
how can i forget to acknowledge my FRIENDS who stood the test of times- countless times to be exact!
thank you JHAJA who had always been my bestfriend and sister and soul comforter. you had always given me shoulder to cry on. you never fails me. you are my proof that friends need not to argue to settle things. we will always be the GRACE and JHAJA tandem! thank you so much for eveything you’ve done for me.
thank you MARIZ whom by far the most honest and opinioted friend i have. your opinion matters to me and your voice is as important as our friendship. you will always be the best dress and the sexy (ehem) friend i will so proud to parade with. thank you for our more than a decade of friendship and yeah, we’re still counting!
thank you LITTLE for allowing me to be the best friend that i could be for you. you had always been my "laugh buddy" as what i’ve said it’s you that i had my best laughs with. we may have our differences but we will always be the same. i will never grow tired defending you because that’s why friends are here for. find comfort in the thought that if God lead you through it, He will get you through it.
thank you FEBI my all time accomodating friend. i soo miss you and the way you treated us in your house. it always feel like first time. but more than that i am so thankful for the fact that we’ve known each other since pigtail days and that would be almost half our lives! my god! you had always given me sound judgement and wise decision in life. you just don’t know how much i look up to you. you inspires me all the time.
thank you CARLA that i never get to feel dull when we’re together. you are the knid of friend whom i can spend the entire day with without having a possible argument.hehe! your calmness fascinates me, i wonder how you do that. but nevertheless, you will always be my one great source of wonder. and i am glad we’re friends and we will always be that way.
thank you HELEN and although i rarely get to keep in touch with you lately i know this friendship transcends time, distance, and silence. you are my truly FABULOUS friend. the one person i can have a conversation with from pork-siomai down to deomestic-bliss hehe! i will always be looking forward for your reserved stories to tell and i will always be the first person to wish you true happiness.
thank you TIN CAP for the kind of friendship that demands no explanation or whatsoever. i know and i am assured that i will always have a friend in you when the goin get tough. and when all else fails the true spirit of seraphims26 will come to my rescue and i am glad you’re a part of it.
thank you PEARL for our all time conversation you just don’t know how glad i am to find solace in you. our talk-marathon is my own version of theraphy. you know how i love to have meaningful conversation-something that is so hard to have these days esp in the advent of text messages. Nothing beats that one-on-one/ face-to-face conversation over pizza or whatever! thanks peej. i am looking forward for the next chat!
thank you TIN GARI for doing the effort to spend time with me and always keeping tract with our friendship. you know how i regard you as my lost sister =) i want you to know that i appreciate everything you’re doing and i am so proud to see you’ve grown up so much.
thank you GEN my operator no more..hehe=) you are the most quite yet the sweetest friend i think i have. you’re the best example if not perfect of what a true BESTFRIEND should be. you may be unaware but you have to know how thankful i am to be your friend, it’s not everyday and not everyone gets to have a GENEVIEVE like ours =)
thank you MARES the prodigal friend =) whom we missessss a lot. our HOT MAMA and although we rarely see each other we will always be true to the bond that we’ve had. remember this FRIENDSHIP never requires anything. we miss you res!
thank you LJ for testing how far my patience could strecth. but anyhow, your presence makes our friendship wonderful. i don’t know if i will be as thrilled as i am right now if not because of your presence.
truly, friends are what we need to go on in life i am a strong believer of that.
so, ADIOS 2007 i had great great memories to take with me in the coming new year as much as i had so many baggagess to leave behind. i don’t intend to overload myself - no way!
there’s one more thing i felt the need to share:
to leave something behind is a definite blow on our part because people are wired to cling on things. but sooner or later we will only realize that while we are so busy focusing on the small details we tend to forget the bigger picture. if we only see things in black and white, we miss the other shades of color that helps define the kind of person we are now and the kind of people we have in our lives. Acceptance is a skill and it doesn’t take bragging what’s in between our ears- it is a thing that comes from the heart. people will always be complicated and although sometimes it is just so easy to assume things against someone rather than figuring them out it helps to know that most of the time it is critical to make any assumptions. nothing can be more liberating than acknowledging your flaws and becoming brave from that imperfection.
we are the ones who will decide on how things in our lives should go. it is a blessing- and not a curse!
HAVE A BLESSED CHRISTMAS EVERYONE AND A TRULY PEACEFUL NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!
some people wanna know
i wonder how easy it was for some people to claim that they had never seen even a single grain of hope when infact they had never tried.
i wonder how others can be so naive, so insensitive that they intentionally ignore what’s behind them.
i wonder how some people sleep sound at night without being nagged by their conscience.
i wonder how these people go on with their lives realizing if only they try to be considerate someone might be having peace of mind.
..if only these people become human again no one will have to ask and wonder…
i wonder how others can be so naive, so insensitive that they intentionally ignore what’s behind them.
i wonder how some people sleep sound at night without being nagged by their conscience.
i wonder how these people go on with their lives realizing if only they try to be considerate someone might be having peace of mind.
..if only these people become human again no one will have to ask and wonder…
CONTROVERSY!!!
from all these craps that’s been happening in our country it made all the more clearer to me that after all these years we were always under the regime of corrupt government. whether during Marcos ’s governance or the present administration it made no difference to me. what i believe is that, it has always been a cycle to be governed by people who only have personal selfish interest. we never really had a government who meant to serve its people with all honesty and humility. what we all have throughout these years are people whose only concerns are on how to make their pockets thicker and to live a life of utmost social comfort. while these people have the most beautiful things possible in life, others or if not most of the filipino people are suffering from the depths of poverty and incompetence. the question is not Why these people in the position could take such filthy actions because i hate to point the obvious these people in the government who are corrupt are nothing but a self-centered bastards, driven by its own political interest to stay in power and become more filthy rich. rather, the question in my mind right now is HOW these people could get away with so much??? i’ve already lost confidence in this country and the way we were governed by our own sets of rotten politicians. i’ve seen countless political scandals in this present administration, i’ve heard them talked about it, investigated, wasted so much time, putting the country and its people into the pedestal of embarassment and shame, but in the end it all came to NOTHING. that for me is the saddest part of the game and i wonder how they do it. what happened to the "hello garci issue"?. was it an obvious proof that somewhere in between there was a point of deception? something that we all knew, acknowledged, and chose to neglect? i was never a person full of political opinions infact this was just the first time that i felt the need to react through writing. it is not becase im so sick and tired and demanding change doing so would mean demanding the impossible.. it is of no intention to influence others to be heard because i don’t have to point im sure, in this country with its corrupt government no one has the right to question authority. And now, with this another controversy the "jun Lozada Expose" i am so sure this is another ticket of our country’s instant ride to fame of shame. i am glad that we still have the likesof Jun Lozada whose willing to at least help the truth to come out. but behind all these issues and Lozada’s claiimed of absolute truth i still have one question though, if Joey D and Aballos made ends meet would he still be brave enough to stand in the crowd and shout that there was indeed a corruption with the ZTE deal??? or with the amount as huge as $130M it is no longer a corruption itself it is PLUNDER! would he still choose to be honest? i hope so. while watching the Senate hearing, i couldn’t help myslef but to react savagely with the statements of people involved in Lozada’s alledged kidnapping, i think these people who are against lozada and who are obviously trying their very best to protect the present administration needed time to practice their script to make it believable and to keep us viewers entertained. in my own humble indulgence, i think these people whom i’d like to call administrations warriors needed solitude wheter at home or in their offices to realize that even to those filipinos who never had any college degree could actually tell apart the truth and the lies. they say that the basic step into finding out if the person is telling the truth or not is to ask the same questions over and over again and see if he snaps or break. well, with the statements given by admin warriors didn’t only snapped or break, it even managed to change everytime. what was that supposed to mean? personally, i believe Jun Lozada if not his entire statement at least most of it. he gained my sympathy and my confidence not because he made himself appeared to be a simple " probinsyanong intsik" or becuase during his "HARAPAN the Jun Lozada Expose" interview in ABS-CBN he only wore plain white shirt opposite to those who wore suits and "barong". he made me believe simply becuase he made himself believable. no matter what,when,or how the questions will be thrown upon him he could still provide the same answer whether he’s got his reference or not. i think for me its enough to believe him. but of course as they say, it has to go through legal process because emotions itself is not enough to suffice anyone’s statement whether in Lozadas part or the latter. i can only hope that when they say legal procedure it will be base on the facts presented without taking any sides and not legal procedure according to the hocus-focus of our present administration. with all these investigations and interviews i’ve yet to hear our President or allegedly "Big Boy" FG, to at least make their stand. In fairness to them they deserve the benifit of the doubt. but to my dismay, nothing will they say could amount to the trust lost from their people. i hate to say we need change becuase it has all been said and was never done. maybe i just have to applaud Jun Lozada for refusing to join the ranks of rotten people sitting at their most comfortable position. An applause to one less rascal of a hopeless philippines.
GOD IS SO VAST
SOME OF GOD’S GREATEST GIFTS ARE UNANSWERED PARYERS… BECAUSE NOW I KNOW… YOU JUST HAVE TO REALIZED … YOU JUST HAVE TO BELIEVE, ACCEPT AND BE THANKFUL… SOME THINGS THAT WE ASKED OF HIM ISN’T WORTHY COZ HE KNOWS THERE IS STILL MUCH BETTER WAITING FOR US TO BE UNLEASHED..
GOD IS TOO WISE TO BE MISTAKEN
TOO GOOD TO BE UNKIND…
SO WHEN YOU DON’T UNDERSTAND..
and WHEN YOU DON’T SEE HIS PLAN..
TRUST HIS HEART…
-gracie-
GOD IS TOO WISE TO BE MISTAKEN
TOO GOOD TO BE UNKIND…
SO WHEN YOU DON’T UNDERSTAND..
and WHEN YOU DON’T SEE HIS PLAN..
TRUST HIS HEART…
-gracie-
to rant- no way!
i am having a goodnight sleep in the middle of my dreams… when i heard my phone rant -”someone’s calling you, you’ve got a phone call babe, so you better pick it up- you’ve got a phone call babe, pls pick up..”… i heard myself groaned before i could actually see who the hell’s calling me… and then zapped… it was nothing but a miss call… meant to wake me up perhaps,,, to annoy me,,, to displease me… to burts my dream bubbles… well, the next time around we might wanna consider the hassle… if it’s a phonecall better yet answer the phone.. if it’s meant to solely disturb, get inside your bathroom and flash your phone.. alryt???!!!!
gracie
gracie
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A subtle connection and a clearer understanding…
looking forward
As I look back on the year that was , 2008 gave me a true sense of pride and looking back at a very different me past 25 years right in the face , I realized so much have changed. I always make a habit of assessing how my year went by, how it treated me, and what difference it brought me. The year ’08 was my turning point, it was the year of altered decision making… if it’s for the better in the long run? that I do not know but one thing I’m sure , it’s what matters now. I learned how to live in the Now rather than trying to predict the future. By all means I know that life is living by trial and error and not by certainties and guaranties. It had become my gauge into wanting to know what’s out there, beyond where I was before. I once lived a dormant kind of life and funny how I became so comfortable on how things are going. I thought I could live with it. But one day I just woke up wandering why I am trying to fit myself to a certain role I was made to believe I fitted. It took courage to admit to myself that so many things, chances and opportunities had passed me by. It took a lot of effort in trying to rearrange the kind of life I was so comfortable to live in. Yet , I came into terms that I can always choose to live that way only that I could no longer assure myself of a good night sleep , I could no longer control my nagging conscience that there might be a better things for me , all I have to do is take that one crucial step.
It was a year of tossing and turning, of make and break options and decisions. It was a year of affirmation that I’m such a lucky kid to have found best friends in this universe. To the truest of the word I have made a handful of reliable and supportive people in my life. Friends that had been there for me all throughout, friends who never cease loving and giving, understanding and supporting each other. It was a year of acceptance, to me and the turn of events. Accepting the fact that life is indeed full of surprises. No one could really tell what is bound to happen, it just happens whether you are prepared or not. It was a year of letting go of things that are not meant to stay. Letting go of a person and of oneself in order to pave way for growth and understanding. It may sound sad and morbid but sometimes we not only have to learn how to let go of things but also of people that we think is better off elsewhere. They may not get where you’re coming from at the moment but when the time comes that wounds had been healed and hearts had been mended, they will have you to thank for in helping them find their better self.
The previous year took the world off my shoulder. It taught me how to stand my ground, it made me learn how to make a point and becoming firm at the same time being polite. It taught me a great deal of patience that it pays to never rush things all the time. That it’s best to let things fall by chance sometimes and quit trying to align things that are obviously beyond my control. It taught me how to show people that it’s not ok to just throw their weights around me thinking I was intimidated probably because it was clearly painted on my face to an almost and utter obedience and being able to make them see that it’s also not amusing that they can’t push me around however they like. It was the year where I realized that considering my own needs first is not always the same as considering everyone else’s last. It’s not a selfish act to love myself a little more now.
And so to put everything in perspective, the year ’08 had been a blessing. It may be a hard year to me but it sure brought me so many new things to indulge this New Year. It brought me a clearer understanding that minor set backs are okay. Twist and turns of events are just as fun. Delays are intriguing and that it brought me to meet new faces and personalities that are downright fascinating.
I became a recipient of a wonderful gift : the gift of understanding. It taught me how to develop a deep and meaningful appreciation for the subtle connection between people. When two people, a partially strangers to each other could look you straight in the eye and immediately understand each other. An innocent conversation meant to just kill the time suddenly became each other’s lifeline.
I had the whole year to look back and to thank for. It was life altering year, and it was well worth it. I finally got a hold of what I want and what I don’t want which usually I think is what’s more important. I know that in the coming days, weeks and years I will still be bouncing up and down between opposite experiences but I know what I want now and where I think I am heading to no matter how sudden or unexpected changes are.
Looking forward now, I know things will be better. Life will be happier. Love will be so much sweeter. I know myself better now. i know what I have, where I want to be , and who I want to be with . If I want to take a slower pace in my life now it’s all up to me J. It’s my life , anyway J…
gracy
-SAVING GRACE-
SoMetiMes, TheRe aRe No WoRds
OnLy sHouLdeRs To LeaN
oN, HanDs To HoLd OnTo,
aNd HugS To ComForT yOu
aS bEsT as tHey CaN..
. tHe One WhO wiLL aLwaYs bE
tHeRE…Morethan anything else, you would want to have someone in your life who. The one who will stay with you, through good and bad. The one who will see you beyond imperfections, quirks and all.SOMEONE whobut also be that SOMEONE who will also stay. Inany form of relationships, it is not destiny that dictates how a relationship
will never leave you
times
Someone who will never cease caring and making you feel the sense of. The one who will just because he/she needed time and space
security that comes around by simply staying around
never put you off their world
instead you need someone who will ask you to just hang in there and wait but never really saying goodbye. The one who will and give you the chance to learn and
for things to be okay
understand when you make mistakes
the right to prove that you will never do it again. Someone who will never. The one
throw judgement on you base on what you say and how you feel
whose willing to compromise and understand that sometimes you screw
things up. Someone who maybe in doubt that you will surely screw things
up, or had screwed things before or probably will in the future yet would
be willing enough to give you a chance to redeem yourself when it happens.
The one who will say he/she’d been hurt by you but he/she’s still willing
to forgive you. Someone who knows how to bridge the Gap instead ofl. Someone who values relationships and knows how to The one person who is also Human, to the truest of the
building a wal
nurture them.
word, the one who also has his/her own sets of mistakes to make,things to
screw up, will probably lose people along the way, blame the world for
his/her own fault, and admit that he/she too isn’t perfect.
sure, we live in a time where it is hard to speak from the heart. That is
why, when we find ourselves lost for words all we need is someone who will
be there for us, that person need not to say anything to make everything
right, sometimes all we need is a pat from the back or a quick real hug
from someone who matters to us. In times where words are not enough,
someone’s presence will definitely make a huge difference. So, i will say,
value the people you have at the moment, i won’t agree when they say
forget the people from your past, maybe you simply have to forgive them
for not being able to stick around. Don’t forget to Thank them and make
them feel you appreciate them. Sometimes, even to those who just left
deserves to be thanked for, because at one point in your life he/she was
there and that’s all that mattered.
Life is truly a series of events, finding someone to love, to care for, to be
with, is an art form because in reality, you will have the chance to have
them but if they are bound to be taken away from you, nothing that you
will ever do that will make them stay -the only secret to that is to -Let
Go. What’s important now is, to not only find that
will never leave
survives nor provides options and choices. Relationships last long because
two brave people made a choice to work and fight for it and if it failed, it
is not because they are destined to fail, it failed because one or the other
made a choice to set each other free.
So, whether you’re the one searching, finding the stregth to leave, or meaning to stay, remember that you have your choice and never blame anyone nor destiny and fate. whatever path you choose, listen to your heart. Nothing is more rewarding than knowing you’re Happy and to never live with regrets. *wink*..
gracy
OnLy sHouLdeRs To LeaN
oN, HanDs To HoLd OnTo,
aNd HugS To ComForT yOu
aS bEsT as tHey CaN..
. tHe One WhO wiLL aLwaYs bE
tHeRE…Morethan anything else, you would want to have someone in your life who. The one who will stay with you, through good and bad. The one who will see you beyond imperfections, quirks and all.SOMEONE whobut also be that SOMEONE who will also stay. Inany form of relationships, it is not destiny that dictates how a relationship
will never leave you
times
Someone who will never cease caring and making you feel the sense of. The one who will just because he/she needed time and space
security that comes around by simply staying around
never put you off their world
instead you need someone who will ask you to just hang in there and wait but never really saying goodbye. The one who will and give you the chance to learn and
for things to be okay
understand when you make mistakes
the right to prove that you will never do it again. Someone who will never. The one
throw judgement on you base on what you say and how you feel
whose willing to compromise and understand that sometimes you screw
things up. Someone who maybe in doubt that you will surely screw things
up, or had screwed things before or probably will in the future yet would
be willing enough to give you a chance to redeem yourself when it happens.
The one who will say he/she’d been hurt by you but he/she’s still willing
to forgive you. Someone who knows how to bridge the Gap instead ofl. Someone who values relationships and knows how to The one person who is also Human, to the truest of the
building a wal
nurture them.
word, the one who also has his/her own sets of mistakes to make,things to
screw up, will probably lose people along the way, blame the world for
his/her own fault, and admit that he/she too isn’t perfect.
sure, we live in a time where it is hard to speak from the heart. That is
why, when we find ourselves lost for words all we need is someone who will
be there for us, that person need not to say anything to make everything
right, sometimes all we need is a pat from the back or a quick real hug
from someone who matters to us. In times where words are not enough,
someone’s presence will definitely make a huge difference. So, i will say,
value the people you have at the moment, i won’t agree when they say
forget the people from your past, maybe you simply have to forgive them
for not being able to stick around. Don’t forget to Thank them and make
them feel you appreciate them. Sometimes, even to those who just left
deserves to be thanked for, because at one point in your life he/she was
there and that’s all that mattered.
Life is truly a series of events, finding someone to love, to care for, to be
with, is an art form because in reality, you will have the chance to have
them but if they are bound to be taken away from you, nothing that you
will ever do that will make them stay -the only secret to that is to -Let
Go. What’s important now is, to not only find that
will never leave
survives nor provides options and choices. Relationships last long because
two brave people made a choice to work and fight for it and if it failed, it
is not because they are destined to fail, it failed because one or the other
made a choice to set each other free.
So, whether you’re the one searching, finding the stregth to leave, or meaning to stay, remember that you have your choice and never blame anyone nor destiny and fate. whatever path you choose, listen to your heart. Nothing is more rewarding than knowing you’re Happy and to never live with regrets. *wink*..
gracy
..she may be ..
It was one rainy day, when somewhere, someone holds a thought in her head of how fleeting moments can be when she’s happy. It was supposed to be a gloomy day, sad perhaps. She can’t do things outside, the usual, afraid she might get her feet wet. But it was an easy choice for her, to stay where she was, inside the room, safe and warmed. There is so much she can do, but sometimes chose not to do anything. There is so much she can feel but sometimes she chose to be numb. Sometimes, she may find it hard to say what she mean or to mean what she say, because at times she gets vulnerable. But she knows when to draw the line.
It was one rainy day, when she took a look outside the window and realized how different things are now. How things have changed and how life brought her so many changes. But she chose not to be overwhelmed, she still knows for a fact that sometimes life can be deceiving. What you see is not just all there is. She knows that, even when her heart is still young and tender, she knows what pain is but she knows what happiness best.
And when the rain stops, when it’s time for her to smell the fresh air, and feel the warm breeze, she still chose to stay where she was in the beginning. It’s not because she still would like to be held still by the comfort of her bed. It is simply because she knew that, even if it rains or shine outside, some things are better off themselves. She doesn’t have to go out to smell fresh air nor feel how warm the air is. For she knows in her heart, wherever she may be, whatever weather there is outside, she knows that life is happening now, and her life is happening now.
This girl knew just right. When to feel something or when to feel nothing. She knew that life can be so sweet, but it can also be cruel. She knows that happiness is the most fleeting moment yet she also knew that it’s better than having a life full of waiting. She is someone who may be harsh on herself but tender when she needs to be. She could nurse a wounded heart but she will fight to bring back her lost soul. She is everything you could ever wanted but she could also be someone will never need. She lives her life on her own; sometimes try to make decisions alone. She’s a true marsh mallow at heart but she bears with her a tough soul. She was and she is… and will always be that way.
